guilty i am.

also old, but i love it.


guilty never proven innocent yes, i am guilty.
guilty of harboring hate while forgetting love.
guilty of allowing lies to overpower the truth.
guilty of believing in others at times when i did
not believe in myself.

yes i'll admit it to the world that i am GUILTY.




guilty with rebelling against any & everything
guilty of not being afraid to show my faults
guilty of being out of control & wild at times
guilty for remaining true to Yandeh before any
thing else.

guilty for believing in hope while knowing pain
guilty of never accepting what i am taught
guilty of giving my all to those undeserving
guilty of searching for freedom although i am
lost among the found.

i am guilty and proud.

take off your cool.

shedding each layer of falsehood.
removing each piece of social binding
the essence of your soul begins speaking
whispers muffled and covered in tape

baby take off your cool

i'd love to know what you look like stripped
your mask slowly unraveling to reveal you
not the the portrayed you but the real you
every flaw and every perfection visible

i want to get to know you

let me enter through the doors of mystery
so many questions to ask so many scars to heal
tales to unfold if you'd just let it all drift away
no need to hide, or worry it's time for FREEDOM.

i want to see you.


something i wrote on facebook a while back.

you.

in his presence i am utterly breathless
his mere essence leaves me craving more
wishing the time would stop. so this moment
could be treasured forever. every look and kiss
savored never to be forgotten i am him and he is me.
the thought of ever being without you brings tears to
my eyes for your soul radiates penetrating my insides
your worries are my pain.

stuck now..until then :}

make me whole

one day i'll sing this and it will actually mean something.

i used to love HIM

perhaps it was the enigma or the allure of everyone wanting what i had. maybe it was the fact that you weren't what everyone thought i should have or need. whispers of he's not to be trusted infiltrated the processes of my brain allowing he said she said to be what i said. they say you don't know what you have until it's gone. now all is left is awkward stares and longing wondering what ifs , and why someone else is standing where you should be. what's meant to be will be even if it's not now it will happen..only if it's supposed to.

the eyes never lie.

they say the eyes hold the tales the soul guards and keeps safe. unlocked only for those who deserve to see the story beyond the mask. to be discovered rather than told to look into the eyes is to look into pain, happiness, lies and the truth. have you ever looked someone in the eyes no words said, none needed. but you know he/she is the one that holds the last ingredient needed to fill the recipe for love? it's scary in a way but at the same time you both know the other is the one in which was destined for you.

man in the mirror

at what point do we realize that rebellion isn't always the right thing to do? is it before or after we've lost something or someone we know we can never get back? pride is a hell of a thing meant to show the other person that we have "standards" and "convictions"..pride is nothing but insecurities wrapped in bullshit to feed our egos. to tell us that we are doing the right thing, when in all honesty we know we aren't but when we realize it..it's too late. words were said that we can't take back and apologizes mean nothing because the bond was broken for that moment and time. even if one did apologize would we really mean it? i mean considering that at that moment that is what we felt, can one really apologize for their feelings? actions maybe but feelings idk..if i could strip away my pride right now i would but i can't so until then i'm on a journey one breath at a time.




hey mike "If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.”